Archive for October, 2011

Recently, when a friend said these four words to me, I had to pull off to the side of the road because I began to cry uncontrollably. Why is it that when someone says something kind to me my heart begins to swell and my eyes begin to well with tears?

Let me start at the beginning, Ella’s sleep has been terrible since July (that should explain my lack of postings). She has been up all night long, finally falling asleep at 5 or 6 am and sleeping till 12:00 or 1:00 pm. After 2 1/2 months, I finally hit my breaking point. I was weepy, cranky, depressed and deeply sad. I felt guilty because Ella was missing school and fun activities during the day.

During a yoga class when my teacher and friends expressed concern for my sad, depressed and very tired appearance was when their kind words and concern set me off. Well to be really honest, the segment on the Today Show for the movie “Dolphin Tail” that I saw before yoga class really set me off. I was a mess, every time I did a forward bend in class I would begin to cry and backward bends made me weep. After class when my friend told me to be sweet to myself was when I truly lost it, hence pulling off to the side of the road. I’ve spent the last week getting myself together, seeing an acupuncturist, taking lots of yoga and sleeping when I could—being sweet to myself. As I began to recover I was thinking why it takes someone else to tell us to be sweet to ourselves, why can’t we give ourselves this gift?


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