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IMG_7853 IMG_7880 IMG_7887 IMG_7922It’s the time of the year that a lot of people express how thankful and grateful they are for people, animals, places and things in their lives. I think it’s great. Really, I do. It’s a lovely gesture to express gratitude. I am not sure why every time I see a Facebook post about someone being thankful or grateful, I kind of throw-up in my mouth a little bit. The past 6 1/2 months since Ella’s passing I have experienced a lot of different emotions–deep heart-breaking grief, jealousy, relief, guilt, nausea, isolation, loneliness, depression and many more. As we move closer to the holidays and times of family and thanksgiving instead of giving into the vile taste in my mouth, I’ve decided to join the grateful bandwagon. Here is one thing I’m grateful for.

This summer, two months after Ella died, Dave and I took an epic two month trip across the county and to Hawaii. We called it our Ellabration. We celebrated Ella’s life and our love for her, a healing journey. We took three weeks to travel from Vermont to San Francisco, flew to Kauai, Hawaii for two weeks, then took three weeks to travel back to Vermont. I am grateful for the amazing trip, for the time that Dave and I spent together and for the new life we created along the way. (I am now 4 months pregnant.) However, one of the special things about the trip was the many wonderful, interesting people we encountered along our way. As we traveled we visited many of the fabulous national parks we are so lucky to have in our country. One of our favorite places was Crater Lake National Park in eastern Oregon. The lake is the result of a volcanic eruption thousands of years ago that blew the top off the mountain. The crater that was left has filled with rain and snow over thousands of years. The blue-green color of the water is unlike anything I have ever seen, even in Hawaii. It’s a magical place. When we visited the park we stayed two nights in a rented Airbnb room in a very comfortable home in Klamath Falls, OR about 45 minutes from the park. Our lovely host/homeowner was a single woman who made sure we had everything we needed to make our stay as pleasant as possible. She opened her kitchen to us, inviting us to have anything we wanted from the well stocked fridge. She was, as I said before, just lovely. We had a instant connection. Her home was filled with angels and photos of her with Jon Bon Jovi. Yep, you read that right—angels and photos of her with Jon Bon Jovi. Dave and I knew this was going to be an amazing story. The three of us stood in her kitchen and we asked “Where did you get all of these amazing photos?” Most of them she had taken herself at shows all over the country. She is a huge fan. She preceded to tell us that she had gone through some very hard times in her life. As a result, she had a near death experience. Bon Jovi’s music gave her the strength to rise above her difficult situation and survive. The angels were part of her near death experience, heaven is filled with them she explained. Dave and I were floored and extremely grateful to her for sharing her intimate experience. We, of course, told her all about Ella, her passing and the purpose of our trip. Then, Dave and I got settled in our room and went to dinner. When we returned that evening she had gone to bed. However, she left Bon Jovi’s latest cd on our bed to listen to on our drive to Crater Lake in the morning. We listened. We cried. We were moved. I have always liked Jon Bon Jovi. I thought he was pretty cute when I was a teenager, but I guess I never really listened much passed “You Give Love a Bad Name” and “Wanted: Dead or Alive.” His music and lyrics are thoughtful, soulful, faithful, passionate and heartfelt. He spoke to the pain, grief and enormous love that we have for Ella. I am so thankful for a new appreciation of a very talented artist.

I am also grateful for the new cherished friend that Dave and I made on our Ellabration trip. A few days after we left her home, she sent me a very special, beautiful email. She described what she saw and experienced in heaven. She said God has a very special place for children. Ella is happy and very well taken care of. I have kept this email and have read it many, many times. #grateful.

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